Supposed 2 be at Kat's wedding in e aftnoon...n oh goSh! i overslept! i woke up 2 see e clock showing 3-45pm...haiish...wad a piG i can be! missed it le...so nvm...call ange...she oso nt at e wedding...den bathe...den went 2 mit ange...outside church...*sumone*was so excited when she saw ZR outside...haha....relax guRl...den we went in 1st...the rest still on e way back...they were sightly late...havent seen elaine in a long tym...she havent came 2 church in ages....hope she cums back soon...hope she doesnt giVe up on God...had a fun worshiP...den had Lord's supper...sumthing was holding mi back...i wanted 2 surrender sumthing 2 God...so i nv...i needed a firm ans frm God...2 let g0 or 2 hold on...had sermon...abt ''who is my neighbour?'' understand. whoever loves God muz love his neighbour/bRo/sis...otherwise he's nt fit 2 be God's chiLd....it was den altAr's call...i am nt 2 sure if i sld ans it...i didnt went 2 e altaR...instead i jus fell on my kNees at my seat...was singing e closing soNg...when God talked 2 mi...telling mi 2 let him g0...although we d0 have e chance 2 be together...but its realli nt e tym nw...i sld commit all i have 2 my studies,God n looking aft gRandma....it's haRd 2 let g0...but i am suRe God would giVe my e strength 2....it would be better if i dun see him 4 e holidays...its hard by i am suRe i can d0 it...it jus takes tym...Eunice prayed 4 mi...n told mi i neednt have love frm a gUy...God's love is more den enough 4 mi...she was also like tis in e past...but she learnt 2 let go bcos of God unconditional love...she experience it alreaDy...den went 2 bUy dinner...i wanted 2 g0 look 4 Chris 2 tell him abt alex...cos alex had been trying 2 get him lately but couldnt...msG him,he nv reply...change nuM izzit? toopiE unCle...alex got impT thing 2 tell him laRs...but i told alex dun say...haiish...if Chris noes, he would be terrlbly upset...den had dinner upstairs....den go interchange wait 4 bus wif ange...her bus came so she left 1st...den my bus came...did sum washing,bathe...den nw chatting n blogging lo...tiRed man...having a headache 4 a few daes le...haiish...Sam was buSy...didnt cum 2dae...Jay n Christina too...see ya all...see ya soon! =]
have poSt E tml...if i see Chris tml,will tok 2 him...
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